Well my mania was short lived. This is typical though and doesn’t surprise me. It’s always amazing how suddenly my manic episodes end. It is like a light switch. I was literally flying high just an hour before and then suddenly it all crumbled. This morning I was two and a half hours late for work and I am completely non productive. This morning was so bad I actually had fears of hospitalization playing in my head. To top it off, this week is a crazy busy week and I really don’t have the energy to deal with it all now. A lot of it is a product of my overextending myself while manic.
I had a fabulous weekend though. I will blog about that later because I don’t want to mar the telling of it with all of this shit about depression.
I just want to go home and go to bed! What is worse is that I am already behind at work because of my mania fueled blogging last week. If I had the vacation time I would take off, but I used most of it several weeks ago when I took vacation. Of course if I was off I would just sleep the whole week away but I’m not going to be productive awake, just miserable, so what’s the point?
Hang in there girl, it is so worth it.....
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